| i swear im on crazy pills. |
[02 Sep 2005|12:36pm] |
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what the fuck?
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| woa nigger |
[01 Sep 2005|07:09pm] |
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im in california..
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[11 May 2005|10:39am] |
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i just want to go somewhere and sit.
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| copy/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste/paste. |
[09 May 2005|01:37am] |
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tonight: i went to a show (the faint) and there was a girl who looked like somebody i hated in arizona, i dunno if you know her, her name was bre and she had blonde hair and was all mo-mo and tried to be scene and junks. and she wouldn't let my friend up so i pushed her to the side and said hold on a minute then moved krystyna and then the faint came on and krystyna and me decided to move to the front. i thought it would be fun to fuck with that chick so i pushed through her and then she pulled my hair so i turned around and punched her in the face and then smiled and moved forward some more. then on the way home these guys in a honda tried racing me, which they totally could have won, but they slowed down on a turn right before i was going to exit so i jetted by em and then they ended up getting off the same exit as me and we were both at the stoplight and they looked at me and their mouths dropped. i think it was because i was a chick or something dumb. i dunno. but it was fun.
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| eat shit. you fuckin cunny! |
[06 May 2005|07:27pm] |
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if you don't like it/leave.
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[05 May 2005|01:36pm] |
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placebo every me and every you. |
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i work at slaveway and hottopic.
the 14th is prom. should i go?
i got an acceptance letter from ASU. i don't know if i can afford it and/or really want to go back to arizona. i heard those kids have changed a lot, a lot. except the ones that've graduated.
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[20 Apr 2005|12:16pm] |
read the da vinci code.
it explains A LOT.
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| oh fuck. |
[18 Apr 2005|07:56pm] |
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making fun of dick eaters..one in particular. with an A. hah |
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i turned in applications. and junks. none of the managers were in so all i get to do is hope and other things...
but all in all what happens happens. and if i get a job that will be great cause ill buy tattoo after tattoo and pay my insurance and my parents back for the car and then ill have robert or someone take some pictures and then im going to be one of those girls that have mostly naked pictures on suicidegirls.com. maybe. it'll be fun to apply though. and be like "damn. i tried. that was cool." then get paid 10 grand a picture when i get in. i won't have to work at a porn shop anymore! yes.
i havent seen happy gilmore for a long time. but i think im going to take a shower.
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| hmm...weird. |
[05 Apr 2005|10:47am] |
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i kissed cabrina because robert said he'd be mad if i enjoyed it.
and if that's the case then i did. especially because i was belligerent.
it's not that im mad. im just grossed the fuck out.
and im dealing with it like a fourth grader.
i still can't believe out of all randomness mike had to tell me that ashley sucked roberts dick. lol the funny part is she was really bad i guess. supposedly. maybe trying to make me less sick.
but i still want to puke out all of my alcohol induced insides.
i wish i had a 1. BAC. that way if i was bleeding, my blood would taste good and it would get me shitfaced.
someone said i should quit smoking. but i told them im not a quitter.
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| he loves like blisters ( i dont know the the fuck im thinking) |
[17 Mar 2005|11:00pm] |
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happy birthday nic dionisio!
p.s. wee mike is here and it's weird. just seeing an arizona kid in seattle is freakin me out. and in 14 hours robert will be here, too. im excited.
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[16 Mar 2005|06:33pm] |
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rex bit a hole in my pinky and there's dried blood all around it and you know how there's little wrinkles around your knuckles? well it makes it look like a grandma's bloody vagina.
p.s. i think im catching another cold.
p.m.s. i dunno if ill ever find a car that will just fucking work adequately. im so done with this looking around crap.
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[14 Mar 2005|09:17am] |
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im at school again.
fancy that.
finals start tomorrow and end wednesday. then maybe hopefully im going to auburn to hang out with some kids. note: i need a fucking car by wendesday.
son of a bitch.
so i had this dream about this atom bomb that was in the lake i used to live by as a kid. and there was a cell phone on the side of it and my dad took it off after i told him not to then the bomb was activated. everyone started freaking out and there were strangers in my house and i asked the range in which an atom bomb explodes and they said as long as a pizza run. lol
so i said okay and told my parents that we have to leave right now as if the bomb would only kill us, then they told me to shut up and that we'd leave in a minute. then i was like "no! now!" and then i woke up.
so in economics today, the teacher was talking about the 50's and how this guy wanted to line up atom bombs in this canal to stop the pollution from getting in the air. and that the bombs would blow a hole creating a little tunnel for the pollution to go through. and i was kind of weirded out.
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[11 Mar 2005|08:36pm] |
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| "i...have...a..plan!"- tommyboy |
[07 Mar 2005|10:57pm] |
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boy do i.
hahahhahaha ohh man. none of you know what im talking about and out of all randomness GBH came up. that's a sign...a big one. right right...
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| march on electric boys |
[06 Mar 2005|12:59am] |
went to the BB show.
it was hot.
the pit sucked cause all the kids push and they're idiots.
i went off to the side and danced by all the boring people standing there.
it was a pretty good set and then they were finished all hot and sweaty (just like me).
saw that they were moving towards the other side of the stage,
fished my way through and found the end just as the bisexual boy named johnny was in my way.
he signed a few things for me: andrews show flyer that i folded into 4 squares in which he signed each one, then he signed the back of my pin up girl cigarette case. he said he liked it.
the after party was him "going to sleep" and me trying to look for tape so the writing on my case doesn't smear or rub off.
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[25 Feb 2005|09:25am] |
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IMA ROBOT aaaaand modest mouse. |
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im in school. class starts soon.
im kind of cold, actually.
well for having a tshirt on and my manchester jacket. i dont know what i was thinking, but i like it. maybe ill lose weight because im shaking. hahaha. being cold is helping my mood. it's overcast which is a good disparity from the past month.
this weekend hopefully i can make those beersteins. if krystyna doesnt get sick or her parents allow it..
so i thought that we'd go to bloodbrothers on the guestlist. thats what she told me. then at the hhh show she was like "well they were in portland and i havent even talked to them yet, and i'd just feel bad asking him for free tickets." then i said that he's fucking her sister and he probably wouldnt care. honestly. it's not that big of a deal it wouldnt affect him in anyway. but whatevah. then she said she'd pay for my ticket, which was really nice and everything, but i wouldnt make her do that. so i told her to buy me two and ill sell one.
on saturday im going to bobs java jive for sex-a-peel. should be fun. i get to fuck around with alex and steve and todd and jon and get sauced and stuff. im bringing my knife again, but this time i wont lose it. damnit. janet. fucking whore.
i realized that select friends i have are fucked up and have shitty morals when it comes to being there for trivial things. and if it's trivial things, then what the fuck would happen for big things? i hate that. so much. it's disappointing. i found out that right now im disappointed. and now i have an idea.
in the duration of minutes...i feel cynical. if someone tells me something, ill assume they're lying. and the above is why i can't keep my hopes up on cool shit. fuckers. thats gay. like mikie and derek. only a different kind of gay. blah blah blah i wanna go to a show and get all fucked up. i need sauce. alex said he'd have sauce on saturday. and i am going to drink it. ....so fuck you..
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| fuck, it's that rhino feeling. |
[13 Feb 2005|03:05am] |
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rocky horror picture show was a lot of fun..
the cake was good and so was free popcorn and soda.
i felt like a whore because i was dressed like one.
the timewarp was amazing. i could do it all night..
the transvestites were gorgeous.
the slut played her part.
the asshole was believable.
and i made it home in time to witness my own 3AM depression.
today was good.
what the shit else is there to get to me?
goddamnit, grandma. i said not today...
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| t rex eats apples. so does starr. |
[06 Feb 2005|06:27pm] |
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so i went to the divorce and thermals show with mikee and miss vikki.
it was fun. we danced and stuff. vikki is diabetic and it's kind of cute, actually. she bought trail mix, 2 7ups, apple chips and water throughout the night.
waiting in line, smoking cancer, i saw a bum. he had a jacket over his head and gloves on. taking a drag, i looked over and saw him put his hand in his pants. it looked like he was itching. i was thinking yeah..that happens. he's a bum im sure he has bugs all over. and then i look away keep talking to kids...mikee looks over and is like "holy shit." then i look back and the bum is totally wacking it. it's still in his pants but you can totally tell what he's doing.
needless to say i was horrified.
he was probably listening to all the scene girls talk annoyingly, the way they do, and the boys, too. imagining. listening. wacking. lol thats gross. im sorry.
anywho. peach chardonnay rules. more is better. sparks is good. and one night that isnt raining is swell. for skating.
im non emotional towards just about everything.
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